I wonder what your doing. Its 12am- are you still hunched over your proposal, your fingers racking your hair, or are you asleep- resting. Is there someone else in your bed beside you? Do you wrap your arms around her when you sleep, and cradle her into you. Do you fit as well as we did?
I wonder if you found her, does she make you smile like i did? Can you pick her up and swing her around. Does she look up at you with beautiful adoring eyes. Does she make you laugh? And when you make love to her, does your body tingle with pleasure? Every touch sending a tingle down your spine.
I miss the way we made love; gentle, rough, passionate......but wholeheartedly as though pouring every ounce of emotion into each other. sometimes you made me want to cry.........the passion overwhelmed me. I couldnt get enough of you; in the shower, between the sheets, on the window seat.
I miss the pillow talk, and the way we could talk for hours. We planned our future. I had a great one planned out but you were the chocolate sauce- you made it complete, you made it rich. We wanted to do so many things. I wanted to horseride with you and ride quad bikes and see the world through your eyes. We planned holidays and nights out. We even planned to meet your son. The most precious being you knew.
I even miss your doubts, your insecurities, the troubled look you would get sometimes. I wanted to kiss it all away. i loved you so much more than you knew
Was it even real, it seems so vivid, yet so far away now. I wonder where you are. I wonder what your doing. my heart stops for awhile when I think of you. Your incredible.
